Feeling strange today. Feeling like I am not connected to the world, like I will never be able to connect with anyone again. I miss you, and you know who you are. I wish I was not that weird that you could accept me and love me just as I am as much as I love you.

Overwhelming

Sometimes, every now and then, I am lucky enough to meet or learn about a real life hero. Like Wangari Maathai, the Green Belt Movement and Nobel Prize winner. Like Josphine Ekiru, a maasai woman that was brave enough to face the poachers problem and convert them into elephant saviors. Like the Kisii Minister of Energy, another woman that faces all these corrupted politics of Kenya, and besides all that, she actually does something, she changes the life of her people for good. Like all those single mums in the world that you will never hear complain about, like all those anonymous heroes that try to make our world a better place every day.

And I feel at the same time inspired and overwhelmed. I am always conscious of my priviledged position, where I always had my basics needs covered, but when I try to help others, I always feel like I never do enough. Maybe it is because there are so many and so big problems in the earth we live in that it is impossible to cover everything. Or maybe it is really because I haven't expanded my potential to help others to its full possibilities. Probably is a bit of both.

In any case, it makes me cry to see all this misery and not be able to do anything about it. I want to stop it, I need to do something radical, something big. I need to feel that the world is a better place for everyone to live. Anyone with me?

Hope

A couple of months ago I was in the Netherlands, without a clue about my future, scared and lonely. And look at me now, living in Kenya, with a 5 year plan and a loving person by my side that I had given up on finding.

It is impressive to look how our life changes, so fast, so uncontrollably. I read once that our mind stops us from realizing how much our life changes everyday and concentrates in the routines instead, so that we don't go crazy.

Sometimes changes are welcomed, sometimes are desperate, sometimes are scary. But whatever the change is, however bad the situation might be, don't worry, it will change again, and then you will feel that everything falls into place again and you can reconstruct your life again. Now I know. I learned it the hard way, but I am happy that I learned it. As a very important person in my life right now would say, no matter what it is, no matter your faith, your religion or non-religion, there is always hope. So don't give up, and even if you are scared, allow yourself to do those crazy things you always wanted.

Date a girl that travels

Quite an interesting idea. I feel im a bit like that in many aspects:

http://www.solitarywanderer.com/2012/02/date-a-girl-who-travels/